You IMed me for the first time in days and my heart starts racing...in a bad way. I want to talk to you but at the same time, I don't. What I said about how you shouldn't be in a relationship if you don't know how to be in one, I'm not ready to talk about that some more right now. I'm scared, actually. For me and for us. Talking to you made my heart beat so hard in my chest and I could feel it all the way in my head. It makes my vision blur and it makes me want to blur you out. It hurts. But I won't expect anything or hope.
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