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03 October 2010 @ 12:27 am
 You IMed me for the first time in days and my heart starts racing...in a bad way. I want to talk to you but at the same time, I don't. What I said about how you shouldn't be in a relationship if you don't know how to be in one, I'm not ready to talk about that some more right now. I'm scared, actually. For me and for us. Talking to you made my heart beat so hard in my chest and I could feel it all the way in my head. It makes my vision blur and it makes me want to blur you out. It hurts. But I won't expect anything or hope.
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
15 September 2010 @ 04:53 pm
 I think this is a little overwhelming. Or maybe, I'm overreacting. I can't believe seeing one insignificant thing is making me hurt like this. If it's so insignificant then why do I care so much?! Because I do care, even if it's childish. One small thing and my world comes crumbling down. So fucking pathetic. 
17 August 2010 @ 12:51 am
We say the things we want to mean but they end up of being meaningless anyways. You know he heard the words but they are ignored by the heart. All that effort and courage to build up the moment to say something meaningful becomes futile when he gives you a smile worth nothing to you. A reaction you didn’t want yet still take because you tell yourself, it maybe worthless but it’s still something from him. In the end, you are in denial and keep moving forward regardless, hoping that he will offer his love to you one day. And that hope keeps you motivated and delusional.
Current Mood: crushedcrushed